Bless My Heart

the improvement of a southern girl

Rain, rain, stay awhile.

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I woke up to rain dripping outside my window. That’s the best. Especially since I don’t have to go anywhere today. I have tons of things on my To Do list, but for now I’m content staring out the window – just being.

Work begins again next week. Monday morning. Another summer gone so quickly. Another list of goals and plans that I was going to accomplish not completed. Only halfway completed. Half-pleted.

I have a tendency to put an enormous amount of pressure on myself. I set the bar high each day. I MUST get this done. I MUST finish that. I MUST exercise. I MUST eat 100% correctly. I MUST make every effort  to be the best mother I can be. The best wife I can be.  I’m not saying that this is necessarily a bad thing, as these are all good goals to strive for. I’m saying the way I approach them might not be the best way. I’ve got this all-or-nothing mentality going on. Unfinished projects stare at me like I’m the last kid picked for kickball. Loser. One bite of white bread and my day has been ruined and I might as well eat two more slices. With butter. And let’s not even talk about when my stress level has hit the breaking point as my beautiful, sweet 3 year old is screaming like a banshee because she got toast and not cinnamon toast for breakfast (this morning).

I am improving, if you can call it that. I don’t feel like a complete failure if I leave the clean clothes unfolded till the morning. Just lazy.

I’m a work in progress.

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Author: blessmyheart

I'm like any other 30-something woman that works full time as a teacher, has two kids, a husband, 3 pets, and has battled cancer. ...among other things. I have things to say, sometimes. This is where I say them.

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